On My Mind

A man can be buried alive while he walks this earth Without stepping his one foot up on the dirt
So much pain for economic gain or fame
Partna’s change when adversity is their face
Makes you wonder was your partna really real out the gate
Friends suppose to elevate 
Through the flames of these streets and control fate
Not eliminate what’s considered blood 
To remove the perception of a thug
Your partna that was believed to ride till they die
Lie in the bed snug a empty shell of what they was
Cause and effect of drugs and no trust
 Its hopeless must maintain focus even though the storm blowing
Trouble my way to just double my pay
I work for 5 days on Friday
Surviving forever riding I want to be living lavish
I’m picking up bad habits and masks 
Racing through the third lane mashing 
Thoughts to cash in off baggies and bagging
Heat hotter than dragons got a smooth pull when they dragging inhale and exhale in 
Grew up around these felons 
Busting melons for no better gain 
Asking God to let it rain to gather the pain and cleanse it away pray for repentance today
Cuz tomorrow another stick up kid
Trying to pay the bills 
I can explain the way I live 
I got get it how I live 
Can’t accept how it is
I’m from the Southwest and the Sunny used to waking up seeing slabs on 24 in. rims
Hanging with my next of kin
Until 5 in the mourning
Scheming and pheening for the big face of Benjamin Franklin but thankful for every penny that touches the palm of my hand
In becoming a man I must devise plans to keep striving to get higher than ounces and grams 
Pounds and these curbs
My balls and my words is all I have to represent my worth
A million dollars